hATEsTAR came to mind when I just needed to think about something other than death. Something to ease the pain of living on this god-forsaken planet. I've always envisioned a lifestyle that was more than just 'hopes and dreams'. I needed something more tangible. Something that I can reach out and touch. Something that I could put my heart into without fear of rejection, and lo and behold I went in a different direction than everyone around me. "Industrial music? huh? you mean like Skinny Puppy? How are you going to do that live?" I just replied with "I don't care.. i'll make .... work"